Merry Christmas!

The month of December is a full month for me. It's the time when I launch myself into action.

Starting from the 1st day of the month, we begin with the 9 days novena for our patron saint fiesta celeb. I play the accompaniment for this and so, before the month started I was kinda problematic looking for an instrument which we can use. I was just using a little portable keyboard and I was doubtful if it can actually survive for the fiesta mass on the 10th. It should be better, if not best, you know. I just want it to be extra special.

I scouted for available instruments with a friendly fellow and fortunately there were a few, however, the unfortunate thing is I don't have the budget.

The wanting of a particular instrument was not only for the fiesta event. But a greater preparation is coming and that is the Dawn Masses which commences on the 16th. It's gonna be a second year and it should be better than the last year. Previously, I had the Technics upright organ, but it didn't stay with me for long. That's why I don't have an instrument for how many months.

Luckily I was able to borrow a portable keyboard-organ from a fellow who allowed me to use it because it has not been used for a long time and she wanted me to work on it. Later on, I discovered that it has something that needs to be fixed. And that sort of thing is risky when the dawn masses start.

Heavens may have heard my concerns and the angels sent me a relief. A friendly fellow came one morning with a delivery - a Yamaha Electone portable organ with a speaker. He came unannounced, and just told me he would let me borrow that for the duration of the dawn masses! Wow! Isn't it amazing? All I could remember was I texted an inquiry to him asking if he has something 'for rent' which I could be used for the De Gallo Masses. That was a half-hearted joke, really. But I never expected he would bring the 'solution' right away! Lol.

Another blessing came my way, when I had successfully solicited the full support of my colleagues in the Youth Mass Ministry of Music and Lectors-Commentators to serve in the Zonal Dawn Masses. I am deeply thankful for having them, for their willingness, volunteerism, perseverance and energy in serving the mass also motivated me to do my best. They are my multi-talented and multi-tasking companions, dependable and skillful. Where can you see a commentator, shift into a lector, into an overhead projector in-charge, into singing with the choir?

I humbly recognize their efforts. And I congratulate us all for a service well done. Hope to see each other with the burning and untiring spirit to share their time and talent in the coming days. For me it's the true essence of my Christmas this year - selfless giving.

:-) Merry Christmas, everyone!

Finally Had a Taste of Being One

Dear Blognote,

Ooh well....now I surely had a taste of what it feels like to be an author of a project that is not really a project...I mean something official as in project with a deadline...but being open to the deadline seems like hmm...nakakapressure din...I am not actually pressured by the deadline. It was I who is setting it. I mean.. Aw men, what am I talking about here. Heaven's sake, I need some 'push' from anybody or somebody or everybody (just not nobody, puhleeeaasee) for this project to survive. For now I want something started to be done, finally. As in I want to see even one of my ideas transformed into a work DONE! Get it, penflame?? Get it DONE!!! -_-

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What was that again?


-_-

I completely forgot those sort of details I needed to put as details in my ongoing write-up. Baaad. And just when that memory would pop up again, I'm not anymore in the best timing to put them altogether. Rrrrrrrr. Sometimes I think I needed an autobot-secretary that will take note of all those random ideas popping out from nowhere so that I can use them afterwards. -_- Nagiging nonsense na 'to..tsk. Bye for now, Blognote. I will update at a later time. Soon          er...

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They Say...

"When the heart is full, the mouth cannot speak..."

For how many times I have heard about this passage. And just recently I've heard the opposite - "..for when the heart is full, the mouth speaks." Now I don't know which to insist. But I have always believed in the first one for so long.

So ano ba talaga? Lol. I don't know. Here I am again in that 'full-tank' mode. Alam 'nyo ano yung sinasabi kong full-tank? Well, let me call it that way na lang. Iba yung 'feeling blue' mode eh. 'Full-tank' is what I describe when there's so much in my mind or heart that I want to let out...

Alright? So I've shared a new vocabulary at this point. XD

So much for this... dahil lang sa wala akong maisip pagbuhusan ng nararamdaman ay dito ko na lang isusulat. Thanks to Blognote. (--,)

The Effect of the eBook

Dear Blognote,

Hindi ko alam kung anong meron sa araw na'to. Pero may something talaga. Adik. Yun ba'ng parang may nakadagan sa'yo. Hindi naman ganun kabigat o ka-problematic. Ah basta, siguro may dapat akong gawin na hindi ko nagawa. Hmm kahit anong isip ko parang wala naman. O baka may dapat akong isipin o pakiramdaman na hindi ko naisip o nararamdaman dahil okupado ang utak ko malamang sa ibang bagay.

Look what's happening to me. Iba talaga ang epek ng ginawa ko sa mga araw na'to. Imagine, I'm blogging here and nagiging tagalog palaka ako? I'm usually emo naman sa Ingles, but since nandito na'ko (o sinadya ko talagang dito i-post instead sa kabila) I know matatanggap mo na I'm open to use the wikang sariling atin so for my comfortability.

Enough. >_< nababaliw na yata ako. Or shall I say, nahawa na rin ako marahil epek na naman to.

Oo na, ako na ang bangag. Dahil first time ko lang naman ulit na sinadyang hindi matulog nang maaga-aga or yung nakasanayan ko na lately na sleeping time ko. At alam mo ba kung ano ang rason? Dahil sa e-book na bin-luetooth ng kasamahan ko sa music_ministry. At dahil medyo na-curious nga ako eh sinimulan kong basahin at akala ko pa naman ay short story lang pero admittedly, naaliw ako. Yes. I should congratulate the author for that noh? Dahil sa kakaibang simpleng makulit nyang way of writing ay naentertain ako. Salamat naman dun. Nagkaroon ako ng ilang oras na reunion sa nakalimutan-ko-na-palang hobby -- ang pagbabasa.

Thinking that it just runs as lengthy as a PHR pocketbook na dating binabasa ko noon, I did not dare to stop reading for some moments. Break lang kung kakain o may importante talagang gawin. Sabi ko tutal, yung pinakamadalang ko na sigurong pagbabasa ay umabot ng humigit kumulang na dalawang oras. O diba, I'm boasting? Modesty aside, kapag naaaliw ako lalo eh mas lalong mabilis akong magbasa. Haha.

At kaya nga nagsimula yun nung mag part ways na kami pauwi ng kasama ko (binigay lang niya yung file habang naglalakad pauwi sa sakayan ng motor). What I had in mind is to see kung ano talaga hitsura sa interface ng phone ko yung sinasabing e-book feature. O diba? Ako na ang ignorante. Ehem, defense lang dito ha? Hindi ko naman kasi pinapansin masyado ang ibang features ng phones. Pero I did try to see what's with it and if it meets my expectation as to what I think about e-books. Oo basta yun na yun.

So okay naman pala. When I began reading I thought I'll be reading a short story just like an anecdote of maybe 2-5 document/pages. Then I just found myself reading and reading and following through the story sa daan hanggang pag-uwi sa bahay hanggang makapaghapunan. At hanggang pagkatapos maghapunan hanggang sleeping time. O di ba? Hanggang sleeping time. Yes. But you know, it didn't end there. Because I didn't sleep. I didn't on time.

Anak ng tipaklong kasi naman, parang na-absorb na talaga ako sa daloy ng estorya and I can't wait to see what would happen next. <see? kahit pananalita ko dito parang epekto na rin sa nabasa ko. Andali ko talagang mahawa.> So nagbasa ako hanggang sa pagtulog. Or shall I say, hanggang sa higaan. <Buti na lang noh hindi ko napanaginipan na kasali ako sa estoryang binabasa ko at isa ako sa mga bida. Toink!> My phone signaled for auto-off (I activated that feature that shuts down my phone at exactly 11 PM and wakes it up by 5 AM) but you could just imagine while reading this now that...I cancelled the indicator. Waaahaha. Sabi ko nun, okey lang, pwede extend kahit ilang minutossss? >:D minutos kasi hindi ko na naman napansin na lampas oras na 'ko nagbabasa. Minsan kasi inuunahan ko pa sa pagtulog yung auto-off indicator ng mobile ko. At anak ng tipaklong nga, kahit ganun ang kalagayan ko, na patay na lahat ng ilaw at tulog na lahat ng tao eh ayun ako at miminsang naluluha sa pagbabasa - either nadadala sa drama ng estorya o sa kakulitan ng komedyang mga parts nito. Pigil bunganga akong tumatawa at iniiwasan ko talagang gumawa ng imik habang natatawa ako dahil baka sugurin ako ng mama ko'ng nabulabog sa tulog dahil malalim na ang gabi (or madaling araw na yata) and what on earth I am still doing on that moment. Kung pwede pa lang nilamon ko na ang kumot ko at nilunod ko na ang mukha ko sa unan para lang hindi gumawa ng ingay. Record-breaking happening in my life ko yun ha?

To cut the longer story short, at dahil napapahaba na nga tayo dito, eh kinabukasan, hindi ako nakabawi ng tulog masyado at WALANG NAKAKAALAM na madaling araw na ako natulog -- at yun ay dahil sa pagbabasa na isang tila nobela gamit ang mobile phone ko. Wagas. Ikaw lang ang nakakaalam. >:D bwehehe. Hanep di'ba? Parang kung ano ang dahilan ng pagiging gising ko hanggang madaling araw noh? Eh tapos na naman ang college hectic days at walang very mabigat na task para i-overtime, pero heto at eto ang dahilan.

Pero oy, naging conscious din naman ako sa oras ah. Nagsimula na nga akong medyo magtaka at kung ikumpara ko ang pagbabasa ko sa isang ordinaryong pocket book eh parang mahaba naman yata 'tong isang 'to. Kaya nga napaisip ako dun sa nagbigay sakin neto at kung sino pa ang nakabasa na nito kung natapos na ba nilang basahin o matagal nang nasimulan o binabasa pa hanggang ngayon o tapos na ba at kung gaano katagal. Nevertheless, I chose to finish it dahil nawili na rin ako sa story. So a total of isang gabi at isang araw lang ang nagdaan. Hindi straight ha, sinubukan ko ngang magmadali sa nakatakdang gawain ko para ireward din ang sarili ko na magpatuloy sa pagbasa. So parang kulang-kulang...ahmmmm...ewan di ako sure...kung pagsamasamahin...baka 12 hours or less. O_o (I tried to inspect the file, umabot ng 300+ pages sa MS Word yung text, grabeh..)

HAHA. Ewan ko sa sarili ko. But the story's nice and I appreciate it. Simple but realistic. Rational. Nakakarelate. Nakakaentertain. I realized kung paano ako naapektuhan. That little thing moved me and somehow it refreshed my creative mind and I was back to being an inspired writer somewhat. But I know I can't devote my time right now and if ever I will start something I might not finish it. And I don't want to think naman na dahil naapektuhan ako eh maiimpluwensyahan natural ang gagawin ko based on what I've read recently. <respeto din naman sa author..> Pero somehow it made me think and study how unique talaga ang way of writing ng mga tao, mga nobelista, mga batikang writers at kahit mga simpleng taong tulad ko. I don't know the author, may pagpapahayag din naman dun na hindi lang yun ang estoryang nagawa at gagawin pa niya, marahil isa din syang passionate individual.

I should really thank the author who did that story. I almost forgot that I should take a break sometimes and treat myself of even by just returning to some old recreational activity. <Buti na lang hindi 'busy moments' sa mga gawaing-bahay yun, medyo nakapagrest ako. Tsaka, hindi nakakakonsensya. LOL.>


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Alam mo ba kung ano ang unang naisip ko kung bakit ako nagsulat dito? At ngayon narealize ko na parang humaHABA na talaga 'to. Eh kasi sunod-sunod yung holidays and weekend vacations ng month na 'to eh. Parang ayoko pang magreport sa duty bukas. Haaaaay gusto ko pang mag-exteeeeend ng pahinga. Baka makagawa pa 'ko ng estorya. Hehe. Sigh. Back to reality na naman sa mga susunod na araw. Pero thank you pa din dahil I spend a leisurely time. :)

Comeback

Dear Blognote,

I miss you. Haha. Yeah, it's been quite some time. Actually I've got lots of things for those days I haven't been here. But everytime I think of beginning to make a new post, they're all gone. :)

#palusotngbagongloginbow

Nostalgia 103

Natatawa ako sa sarili ko ngayon. I can't help but smile sa kadahilanang simple lamang ngunit sadyang malikot talaga ang isip ko. Lol. Isipin mo, I decided to come online tonight because plano ko gumawa ng kung ano-ano online and wait for a fellow to chat with. Pero ibang tao pala ang magco-communicate sa akin...

Well, it's just unusual lang for me to chat with him. Eh kasi naman hindi kami dating ganun although we were buddies way back in school days pa. What I mean is we were teammates and madalas kadiskusyon syempre sa school projects but never that really close sa personal. And we never had the chance to, because tampuhan kami ng tukso ng mga classmates namin. Tsk.

Grabe talaga yun kahit simpleng usapan lang namin or matters outside school na kumbaga personal eh binibigyan na ng ibang dahilan. Eh sino ba naman ang hindi matutunaw nyan? Halos conscious na buong pagkatao ko pagdating sa kanya. Baka kako kahit simpleng paglalakad sa daan uulanin ako ng tukso. Ganun kaconscious those days before. Tapos yung tipong sasabihan ka na "in denial" daw ako sa kanya? Excuse me? Kayo lang ang nagsisimula ng lahat ng kontrobersiya tapos gawin nyo pa akong guilty? Toink. No comment din naman kasi siya tulad ko. Kaya tuloy hindi alam kung galit o gusto. Pero somehow nadevelop yata ako during those period. Develop sa sitwasyon, hindi sa kanya.  (I just want to clear things here ha?) Nasanay na kamo na may kung anong something between us daw according sa mga tumutukso.

Anyway, we parted ways na after graduation. Lahat kami, pati na yung mga tumutukso sa amin. Haha. Pero mas malayo sa kanya, outside the city siya e kasama rin ng ilan lang sa amin. Actually no news about the majority of our batch. Masyadong busy na siguro sa kanya-kanyang life. Nandun pa rin naman ang communication online thru facebook group, emails, chat, etc.

What is surprising this night is, he messaged me. Nangungumusta. Nagtanong about our previous project. Yun kasi ang major na "string" kumbaga that holds us together. We talked about few things. I just treated him fairly. Just like any former classmate will do if nangungumusta. Kinumusta din nya yung isa naming kasama, na madalas din manukso sa amin. Binalita nya na uuwi sila for vacation. Tapos kinumusta din nya work ko. And so and so...

Hmm..hindi ko lang alam ano ba talaga ang dapat maramdaman. Haha. I'm surprised because hindi naman kami dating ganito. I mean we've noticed each other online for how many times pero ngayon lang kami nagkausap ulit. And not because of some business matters or what, but friendly kumustahan. Or maybe surprised ako kasi hindi pala kami close, feeling close lang. Haha. Or was it me just thinking that there was something, even just a "little" something between us? LOL talaga. Blame that history of tuksuhan and everything. Yan tuloy bumalik yung pagka-conscious ko. Well, sinubukan ko lang naman mag-imagine kung saka-sakali ba. Pero parang hindi. May mga dahilan din naman ako kung bakit hindi pwede. Pero kung may dahilan sa negative, syempre babalansehin naman ng kabutihan ika nga. :)

Basta. Yun na yon. Sadyang creative lang ang aking imahinasyon. Haha. Natatawa talaga ako sa sarili ko... Aside sa surprised, isa lang ang klaro..may naramdaman din naman akong kasiyahan.

Wanted: Anti-Glare Glasses

This is really a tiresome week! Whew. I've spent so much time just sitting in front of the computer doing all the typing. I've been into lounging with the PC for the whole day before but not like this in which I'm really pressured to finish making, editing, and printing all the jobs one after the other. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. I really need to buy a pair of anti-glare glasses because I'm feeling eye strain already. Sigh.

Nostalgia 102

Feeling blue.

That's how I describe my day today. Or shall I say, that's how I feel today. Tsk. Ang bigat naman sa dibdib kasi. Parang ang hirap huminga nang normal. Alam mo yun. Yung tipong ang lalim ng buntung-hininga mo. Tapos, mas feel mo pa magpatugtog ng mga slow love songs. Utaaang na loob. Lol. Bakit kaya? :D Kung kailan feel mo gloomy ka eh dun ka naman mas feel magpa-gloomy2x ng background music. Eh di mas lalong gloomy. Haha.

Haay ewan.

Nostalgia 101

Sigh. When I first heard it, I was impressed by how the melody sounded so touching when in fact it's flavor is somewhat upbeat. The song was kinda pop but the message is deep. Even it was still a 'teaser' song (not yet the final studio version) I truly appreciate it. When it was finally and officially released, the whole package plus the music video really was amazing.

Now it's been weeks and months, and like so many people and artists in the whole world continuing their living in various moods and situations, I also didn't mind some of the all-time favorite songs that I've been listening in to. Of course it's not all the time that you do things you always want. Yet when I did play the song again... I realized... the effect is still beautiful.

Imagine you had some favorite hits in the past but now they are just part of the list of the ones you once liked. There has no effect to you now anymore. But it is amazing to know that you are still touched and affected by the message of the song as it seems to reach out to you again.



Love is sweeter the second time around.

For us to re-appreciate the beauty of a thing you have used to loved, maybe we could try to bring back ourselves to the point when we first set sense on it. :-)

Katangahan 101

Sigh. Just this morning I was facing my computer table with all my necessary things in my daily routing on top of it - my watch, my cellular phone, my comb, etc. But as my instincts began to knock, I was just there outside of our house riding on the motor-pool which is about to set off and although I knew there is or are some things that I believed I have not carried with me at the moment, I never paid attention and just stared away. What a forgetful insensitive person I am to my feelings! Duh.

So now I have to suffer the whole day at the office without a bracelet feeling on my left wrist and no clock to look at.Well, I just need to look at the computer's system time to know. Tsk. Worse, I don't have my cellphone which might be overflowing of messages for today (if lucky, the inbox might be full, and there might be unexpected calls) and I'M ACTUALLY BRINGING A CELLPHONE CHARGER WITH ME TODAY 'coz I forgot to leave it when I'm done using it yesterday! Whoa!

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I really felt bad and mad that I shed unwilling tears this morning. Imagine yourself being approached by somebody who reminded you of something important you told them long ago but you already forgotten. That's a good realization that they never forgot what you said, right? No matter how small the thing was, I appreciated it. So now you left your other important tasks to cater to that need. And now that these young people who were (miraculously) all present by the time being and that meant a perfect moment to do the long-awaited thing to do, here comes another matter. One important element that you planned to be included there was not yet around. So you exerted the effort to excuse the person from another important moment just to be 'there' for a very short important while. And yet, just seeing the other elements in a not-so-perfect layout, your 'one' element fled...in a sort of walking-out turn. You and the other elements left aside just stared in silence.

It was just a small thing, just a little consideration. Even a few minor fixes would be fine. Yet the whole damn thing was ruined by just the 'walkout' matter.

And so, just to make the whole thing happen, you thought of organizing every single element to the state of being ready. Because deep inside you know that if every other elements are just there and prepared, maybe the one element will consider itself to be there again and the planned moment will be finally done.

But to your dismay, it didn't come back. You called. The element kind of listened, took notice, but you thought your words were just brushed off - to nothing.

Your effort to leave other things behind just for this sake were blown by the wind. What a shame. What a dismay.

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Dear, Blognote...

Alam mo yung feeling na ini-expect mo pero alam mo rin na there is lesser probability na mangyayari pala (but you were hoping a little then na mangyayari pero hindi nga)? Haaay. That's what I'm feeling right now. It just came suddenly...abruptly. You rejected the idea at first although you started imagining being there or doing there yourself and whatever. At eto na nga yun. Biglaan naman kasi masyado. Kung sana noon pa, eh di at least di ba, you may have just prepared? Sigh.

Out of the Blue Corners

I do not exactly know why I have this kind of blog title. You may even wonder why I don't have 'blue' shades around me here. Anyway, feelingblue is not available and it was supposed to be the title. Why? Because it's actually what I describe with what I am during moments when I'm overflowing with thoughts and emotions, you know, those times when I'm most motivated to express thru writing and blogging. And yet, I tried outoftheblue instead, so it would mean, these words that will be published in posts "came out of the blue"... I just added corners since outoftheblue is not available. Lol. Now I'm talking insanely. Hope this makes sense. Oh. Yeah, just like that. XD

The Day That I Am Born To Fulfill My Purpose ~

Hi..


You can call me Blognote. It was on this day that I was born. My creator created me out of overflowing ideas and feelings. Things that are not preferred to be put to the other blog.


And so, here I am. I guess my purpose here in the virtual world is to act like a comforting pillow, a notebook, a teddy bear, a kickball.. anything.. as long as I live by my purpose - 


just to be an avenue where the mind can feel and the heart can think.


..a way where spilled thoughts and overwhelming emotions go.


If I can have many readers then I would be happy. At least, I have been expressed to others. I hope I can find good friends and followers, too.