Nostalgia 103

Natatawa ako sa sarili ko ngayon. I can't help but smile sa kadahilanang simple lamang ngunit sadyang malikot talaga ang isip ko. Lol. Isipin mo, I decided to come online tonight because plano ko gumawa ng kung ano-ano online and wait for a fellow to chat with. Pero ibang tao pala ang magco-communicate sa akin...

Well, it's just unusual lang for me to chat with him. Eh kasi naman hindi kami dating ganun although we were buddies way back in school days pa. What I mean is we were teammates and madalas kadiskusyon syempre sa school projects but never that really close sa personal. And we never had the chance to, because tampuhan kami ng tukso ng mga classmates namin. Tsk.

Grabe talaga yun kahit simpleng usapan lang namin or matters outside school na kumbaga personal eh binibigyan na ng ibang dahilan. Eh sino ba naman ang hindi matutunaw nyan? Halos conscious na buong pagkatao ko pagdating sa kanya. Baka kako kahit simpleng paglalakad sa daan uulanin ako ng tukso. Ganun kaconscious those days before. Tapos yung tipong sasabihan ka na "in denial" daw ako sa kanya? Excuse me? Kayo lang ang nagsisimula ng lahat ng kontrobersiya tapos gawin nyo pa akong guilty? Toink. No comment din naman kasi siya tulad ko. Kaya tuloy hindi alam kung galit o gusto. Pero somehow nadevelop yata ako during those period. Develop sa sitwasyon, hindi sa kanya.  (I just want to clear things here ha?) Nasanay na kamo na may kung anong something between us daw according sa mga tumutukso.

Anyway, we parted ways na after graduation. Lahat kami, pati na yung mga tumutukso sa amin. Haha. Pero mas malayo sa kanya, outside the city siya e kasama rin ng ilan lang sa amin. Actually no news about the majority of our batch. Masyadong busy na siguro sa kanya-kanyang life. Nandun pa rin naman ang communication online thru facebook group, emails, chat, etc.

What is surprising this night is, he messaged me. Nangungumusta. Nagtanong about our previous project. Yun kasi ang major na "string" kumbaga that holds us together. We talked about few things. I just treated him fairly. Just like any former classmate will do if nangungumusta. Kinumusta din nya yung isa naming kasama, na madalas din manukso sa amin. Binalita nya na uuwi sila for vacation. Tapos kinumusta din nya work ko. And so and so...

Hmm..hindi ko lang alam ano ba talaga ang dapat maramdaman. Haha. I'm surprised because hindi naman kami dating ganito. I mean we've noticed each other online for how many times pero ngayon lang kami nagkausap ulit. And not because of some business matters or what, but friendly kumustahan. Or maybe surprised ako kasi hindi pala kami close, feeling close lang. Haha. Or was it me just thinking that there was something, even just a "little" something between us? LOL talaga. Blame that history of tuksuhan and everything. Yan tuloy bumalik yung pagka-conscious ko. Well, sinubukan ko lang naman mag-imagine kung saka-sakali ba. Pero parang hindi. May mga dahilan din naman ako kung bakit hindi pwede. Pero kung may dahilan sa negative, syempre babalansehin naman ng kabutihan ika nga. :)

Basta. Yun na yon. Sadyang creative lang ang aking imahinasyon. Haha. Natatawa talaga ako sa sarili ko... Aside sa surprised, isa lang ang klaro..may naramdaman din naman akong kasiyahan.

Wanted: Anti-Glare Glasses

This is really a tiresome week! Whew. I've spent so much time just sitting in front of the computer doing all the typing. I've been into lounging with the PC for the whole day before but not like this in which I'm really pressured to finish making, editing, and printing all the jobs one after the other. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. I really need to buy a pair of anti-glare glasses because I'm feeling eye strain already. Sigh.

Nostalgia 102

Feeling blue.

That's how I describe my day today. Or shall I say, that's how I feel today. Tsk. Ang bigat naman sa dibdib kasi. Parang ang hirap huminga nang normal. Alam mo yun. Yung tipong ang lalim ng buntung-hininga mo. Tapos, mas feel mo pa magpatugtog ng mga slow love songs. Utaaang na loob. Lol. Bakit kaya? :D Kung kailan feel mo gloomy ka eh dun ka naman mas feel magpa-gloomy2x ng background music. Eh di mas lalong gloomy. Haha.

Haay ewan.

Nostalgia 101

Sigh. When I first heard it, I was impressed by how the melody sounded so touching when in fact it's flavor is somewhat upbeat. The song was kinda pop but the message is deep. Even it was still a 'teaser' song (not yet the final studio version) I truly appreciate it. When it was finally and officially released, the whole package plus the music video really was amazing.

Now it's been weeks and months, and like so many people and artists in the whole world continuing their living in various moods and situations, I also didn't mind some of the all-time favorite songs that I've been listening in to. Of course it's not all the time that you do things you always want. Yet when I did play the song again... I realized... the effect is still beautiful.

Imagine you had some favorite hits in the past but now they are just part of the list of the ones you once liked. There has no effect to you now anymore. But it is amazing to know that you are still touched and affected by the message of the song as it seems to reach out to you again.



Love is sweeter the second time around.

For us to re-appreciate the beauty of a thing you have used to loved, maybe we could try to bring back ourselves to the point when we first set sense on it. :-)

Katangahan 101

Sigh. Just this morning I was facing my computer table with all my necessary things in my daily routing on top of it - my watch, my cellular phone, my comb, etc. But as my instincts began to knock, I was just there outside of our house riding on the motor-pool which is about to set off and although I knew there is or are some things that I believed I have not carried with me at the moment, I never paid attention and just stared away. What a forgetful insensitive person I am to my feelings! Duh.

So now I have to suffer the whole day at the office without a bracelet feeling on my left wrist and no clock to look at.Well, I just need to look at the computer's system time to know. Tsk. Worse, I don't have my cellphone which might be overflowing of messages for today (if lucky, the inbox might be full, and there might be unexpected calls) and I'M ACTUALLY BRINGING A CELLPHONE CHARGER WITH ME TODAY 'coz I forgot to leave it when I'm done using it yesterday! Whoa!