I suddenly feel that odd feeling when I try to reminisce some good old deeds before. It was then I realized I miss that.
I miss myself in action. The kind of scenario when I'm in the middle of instruction or facilitating a team or group of individuals. I miss the leader in me. I miss the feeling of being a facilitator. I miss the feeling of being a teacher or a trainer. I miss the times when I raise my voice along with all the energy and effort and heart and sweat and blood in me to give directions, advisory, information, steps, or just any other stuff. It feels like I can really feel my energy kicking alive. It makes me competitive. It makes me thinking creatively and critically. It pumps my adrenaline. It gives me life.
I guess it happens even for once in your life. That sort of thing when you didn't mind it before but in the present makes you remember how you felt really alive when you do those things. You thought you have not yet found it as something that can fulfill what you were looking for, but actually, it was one of where you found you can derive that pleasure of service, that passion, that excitement, that rush, that dedication.
Yet now you're in a different world, sailing on a different shore, doing a different chore - and you miss it. You miss those tasks before. Those things where you find yourself pouring your heart out. Those times when you yourself is in denial that you have not yet declared those were your call.
Thursday, January 8, 2015
Tuesday, August 20, 2013
Another Musical Year Has Just Begun
Just when I thought I will be engaged in activities related to music (like playing the organ/keyboard/piano/guitar, reading music sheets, doing rehearsals with the music committee, overseeing practices, researching lyrics, collaborating with partners) more and more opportunities which I did not expect before actually came. I am now facing chances of upgrading my skills through various schedules of exposures, training through tutorials and mentoring, observing with the choir, and actually accompanying with them. Whew! This time I can truly say that anything can happen, and if you really are interested to go through one thing and face it, you will achieve what you desire. Nothing is impossible. Just keep on moving and accepting challenges, be open to changes and opportunities, and continue to learn more and more.
:)
Friday, December 28, 2012
Merry Christmas!
The month of December is a full month for me. It's the time when I launch myself into action.
Starting from the 1st day of the month, we begin with the 9 days novena for our patron saint fiesta celeb. I play the accompaniment for this and so, before the month started I was kinda problematic looking for an instrument which we can use. I was just using a little portable keyboard and I was doubtful if it can actually survive for the fiesta mass on the 10th. It should be better, if not best, you know. I just want it to be extra special.
I scouted for available instruments with a friendly fellow and fortunately there were a few, however, the unfortunate thing is I don't have the budget.
The wanting of a particular instrument was not only for the fiesta event. But a greater preparation is coming and that is the Dawn Masses which commences on the 16th. It's gonna be a second year and it should be better than the last year. Previously, I had the Technics upright organ, but it didn't stay with me for long. That's why I don't have an instrument for how many months.
Luckily I was able to borrow a portable keyboard-organ from a fellow who allowed me to use it because it has not been used for a long time and she wanted me to work on it. Later on, I discovered that it has something that needs to be fixed. And that sort of thing is risky when the dawn masses start.
Heavens may have heard my concerns and the angels sent me a relief. A friendly fellow came one morning with a delivery - a Yamaha Electone portable organ with a speaker. He came unannounced, and just told me he would let me borrow that for the duration of the dawn masses! Wow! Isn't it amazing? All I could remember was I texted an inquiry to him asking if he has something 'for rent' which I could be used for the De Gallo Masses. That was a half-hearted joke, really. But I never expected he would bring the 'solution' right away! Lol.
Another blessing came my way, when I had successfully solicited the full support of my colleagues in the Youth Mass Ministry of Music and Lectors-Commentators to serve in the Zonal Dawn Masses. I am deeply thankful for having them, for their willingness, volunteerism, perseverance and energy in serving the mass also motivated me to do my best. They are my multi-talented and multi-tasking companions, dependable and skillful. Where can you see a commentator, shift into a lector, into an overhead projector in-charge, into singing with the choir?
I humbly recognize their efforts. And I congratulate us all for a service well done. Hope to see each other with the burning and untiring spirit to share their time and talent in the coming days. For me it's the true essence of my Christmas this year - selfless giving.
:-) Merry Christmas, everyone!
Starting from the 1st day of the month, we begin with the 9 days novena for our patron saint fiesta celeb. I play the accompaniment for this and so, before the month started I was kinda problematic looking for an instrument which we can use. I was just using a little portable keyboard and I was doubtful if it can actually survive for the fiesta mass on the 10th. It should be better, if not best, you know. I just want it to be extra special.
I scouted for available instruments with a friendly fellow and fortunately there were a few, however, the unfortunate thing is I don't have the budget.
The wanting of a particular instrument was not only for the fiesta event. But a greater preparation is coming and that is the Dawn Masses which commences on the 16th. It's gonna be a second year and it should be better than the last year. Previously, I had the Technics upright organ, but it didn't stay with me for long. That's why I don't have an instrument for how many months.
Luckily I was able to borrow a portable keyboard-organ from a fellow who allowed me to use it because it has not been used for a long time and she wanted me to work on it. Later on, I discovered that it has something that needs to be fixed. And that sort of thing is risky when the dawn masses start.
Heavens may have heard my concerns and the angels sent me a relief. A friendly fellow came one morning with a delivery - a Yamaha Electone portable organ with a speaker. He came unannounced, and just told me he would let me borrow that for the duration of the dawn masses! Wow! Isn't it amazing? All I could remember was I texted an inquiry to him asking if he has something 'for rent' which I could be used for the De Gallo Masses. That was a half-hearted joke, really. But I never expected he would bring the 'solution' right away! Lol.
Another blessing came my way, when I had successfully solicited the full support of my colleagues in the Youth Mass Ministry of Music and Lectors-Commentators to serve in the Zonal Dawn Masses. I am deeply thankful for having them, for their willingness, volunteerism, perseverance and energy in serving the mass also motivated me to do my best. They are my multi-talented and multi-tasking companions, dependable and skillful. Where can you see a commentator, shift into a lector, into an overhead projector in-charge, into singing with the choir?
I humbly recognize their efforts. And I congratulate us all for a service well done. Hope to see each other with the burning and untiring spirit to share their time and talent in the coming days. For me it's the true essence of my Christmas this year - selfless giving.
:-) Merry Christmas, everyone!
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